Random Thoughts

This Sahir Ludhianavi nazm was posted in year 1 of MHFL: Nov 1996 to Oct
1997. A part of this nazm was copied, simplified and used in the movie
“Kabhi Kabhi”.

Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayaal aata hai….

Ke zindagi teri zulfoo ki narm chaaoon mein
Guzarne paati to shaadaab ho bhi sakti thi
Yeh teergi jo meri zeest ka muqaddar hai
Teri nazar ki shuaoon mein kho bhi sakti thi

( Sometimes these thoughts come to my mind….

that if my life were spent in the shadow of your beautiful hair
then it would have been so delightful..
This dark fate of mine would have been filled with light by
the bright rays of your eyes)

Ajab na tha ke mein begana-e-alam ho kar
Tere jamaal ki ranaaiyoon mein kho rehta
Tera gudaaz badan teri neem-baar aankhen
Inhee haseen fasaanoon mein mahoo rehta

( It would not have been strange if with you,
I would have been indifferent to the ways of the world
I would have at all times surrounded myself with the delicacies of your
Your gorgeous body and your half closed eyes…
I would have remained engrossed in these wonderful delights)

Pukaarti mujhe jab talkhiyaan zamaane ki
Tere labon se halaawat ke ghoont pi leta
Hayaat cheekhti phirtee barhana-sar, aur mein
Ghaneri zulfoo ke saaye mein chup ke ji leta

( and if the bitterness of the world tried to trouble me
I would have taken a sip of sweet nectar from your lips to console
Real life is like a ugly mad woman running and screaming with
dishevelled hair
But real life would not have bothered me… I would have peacefully
slept protected by your cascading and silky hair)
Magar yeh ho na saka aur ab yeh aalam hai
Ke tu nahi, tera gham, teri justajoo bhi nahi
Guzar rahi hai kuch is tarah zindagi jaise
Isse kisi ke sahaare ki aarzoo bhi nahi

( But this could not happen… and now
you are not with me, and frankly, I don’t feel a pain
and I have no desire left for you.
I am spending my life in such a way… that I
do not need any one with me or any friend to support me)

zamaane bhar ke dukhoon ko lagaa chuka hoon gale
guzar rahaa hoon kuch anjaani guzar-gaahon se
muhib saaye meri simt badhte aate hain
hayaat-o-maut ke pur-haul kharazaaron se

( I have accepted all the pains of the world
Nothing protects me as my life explores facets of the world
that are strange
dreadful shadows from the cruel aspects of life and death
come towards me to scare me)

na koi jadah manzil, na roshni ka suraagh
Bhatak rahi hai khalaaoon mein zindagi meri
Inhi khalaaoon mein reh jaoonga kabhi kho kar
Mein jaanta hoon meri humnafas, magar yuuhi
Kabhi kabhi mere dil mein khayaal aata hai….

( I have no aims now, there is not even a ray of light
My life moves through dark empty spaces
I know that my life will be lost exploring this dark emptiness
I know all this, my beloved, but still,
sometimes these thoughts come to my mind)
maine samjha tha ki tu hai to darakshaan hai hayaat
tera gham hai to gham-e-dehar ka jhagra kya hai
teri soorat se hai aalam mein bahaaron ko sabat
teri aankhoon ke siwa duniya mein raakha kya hai
( there was a time when I thought:
that if you are with me then life would be heaven
if I suffer your pain then the pains of the world would not trouble me
that Your face makes the season of spring permanent
And there is nothing in this world apart from your eyes)